September will be an interesting test drive. I'm simultaneously looking forward to leaving the house, and dreading what kind of state I'll be in performance wise. There is still so much to unpack, and the emotional weight doesn't seem to relent. The tour is small and will keep me in BC which is where I need to be right now. I guess I'm mostly just hoping that this working excursion will answer some questions for me. No matter what choices are made it's important to let everyone know how loved and supported I've felt through this process. Thank you all for your continued encouragement and hope. There are days that feel bearable and there are days that don't. Either way, it's a tremendous help to have so many people behind me wanting me to pull through all of this.
It's clear that I have some big choices ahead of me. Lately, I've put a lot of that on hold as I try to get a better grasp on my life. I haven't felt like I've been in the best frame of mind to be making choices, but the world doesn't give us much of a chance to catch our breath, and recently I've felt winded by a reality that's as solid as the ground it's thrown me down on. I guess I wanted to write about choices... so this all started on a napkin and snowballed into this piece. The working title is Every Day, but that may change. Just wanted to share this with people as I know many of you are staring down paths of your own. We can be pretty flippant about decision making when we're already drowning in the stresses of our everyday lives... we reach out for anything that keeps us afloat, but they're usually temporary things... nothing we can anchor ourselves to, or build a foundation from. At some point it starts to feel like anything that resembles dry land is what we should be swimming toward... sometimes we swim for what's closest... other times we kick toward a horizon. Whatever we choose becomes our inheritance. Sometimes we see that as consequence and sometimes we see it as reward, but either way, none of it is coincidence... your whole life is a result of your choices. I've been feeling that a lot lately so here is this months offering. Tour dates, as always, are listed below. If you can make it out, come say hi.
In gratitude, Shane